"Jacqueline Koh
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"
Monday, July 27, 2009 || 5:40 AM
I've a need
to collect my thoughts in a bucket and sort them out one by one.
1/5 --> back to my head, // (block!!!) <-- 3/5 reduced to ashes in a furnace, 1/5 will flutter into nowhere.
thank you shyam for the sweet gift, the big A word for you :)
x
May the laughter that you find in your tomorrows wipe away the pain found in your yesterdays :)
Monday, July 20, 2009 || 6:49 AM
i
miss
the playgrnd's sandpit, trying to dig so deep till i can feel the solid bottom but i never had a chance to do so b/cos i was always so ...
impatient i blamed it on the tools saying other kids had bigger shovels & then i'd throw a trantrum the adults never knew why my face was so black
i
remember
mummy's first yoyo for me she asked me whethr i wanted it i nodded my head beaming if only i still have it w me i think just the touch of it wld warm my heart (recently i told her abt it and she remembers too!!!)
i
want
to run around barefooted or w my undies running through potted plants or play blockcatching hiding in the place whr people place their brooms and if someone caught me i'd freeze having the idea people'd think i'm made of concrete
ice pops 10cents tom& jerry mummy picking me up from school best treat wld be us having lunch tgthr childhoodfriends cane laugh cry confiding in my pillow mattresses hold hands goodnight kiss japanese occupation serial bigger eyes family outings dinner outings picking out clothes for me demin suspenders i not stupid dad didi will always let me pick out his children's day goodies jiejie will always pull my hair or pinch me superrings kiddyrides bubblegummies ah neo xiao hei lousy bicycle geeky specs
i know
all these are no more
/dear denise my luv, i hope you're studying your books more than the hot guys arnd you.
1 proj down, 4 more to go :)
Sunday, July 19, 2009 || 8:20 AM
Blooooooody hell next time i'll listen to angel more and sit still T.T WELL AT LEAST I FELL GLAM-LY. No falling flat on the face whatsoevr. Cheeeeeeeeponda why the lighting so dim oneeeeeeeeee okay lah blame it on my clumsiness.
Hee hee i think my brain works pretty ahem* fast HAHAHA i swear when i was falling i was like thinking k im falling must fall glam HAHAHAHAHA WTH
Ogayyyyy now lycheetinis are on par w frolick. OH I DID NOT HAVE A CHANCE TO CHECK OUT THE ROOFTOP :(
HEE HEE ANGEL IS TEMPTED TO GET SMTHG W ME HEE HEE WHATEVR HAPPENED TO SELF DISCIPLINE YO X)
Haiyah dear ah, just admit it we like the same sort of therapy no need to like AIYA WO BU YAO WO BU YAO.
YAY WO YAO CHECK OUT ANN SIANG RD MOAR. WO DE MOUTH BERRY ITCHY NOW HOW K I GO MUNCH ON APPLE BYEBAI
NE-WAYZ:
A little a little a little. It's so sad the maths says that many a little adds up to a hell lot. And it's a little sad that i miss you a little too much. But i think it's a good thing it's a little lesser than before x)
Thursday, July 16, 2009 || 8:34 AM
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
whatever we choose to do, there's nobody but ourselves to blame.
HELLOOOOOO JACQ YOU KNOW WHATS RIGHT WHATS WRONG DONT LET FEELINGS DEFEAT YOU YOU WEAK PERSON!
I suddenly rmbrd, on a busride w angel, i was telling her it's pretty weird i'm not prepared for the pain i feel a little scared and she said probably it's because i'm happier now. It's true, to a certain extend, very true. It's a good thing hee hee X)
I keep eating ... i can never feel full. My god ... i should really control the intake of my sugar intake. Maybe i did so well today sam tan asked me ' wheres your sugar rush jacq? why do you look so dead'
Hee hee hee today kellyann,michelle,mengyun,elynn& i went to T1 aftr proj consultation to walk walk eat eat(T.T) around. Tried on blazers we look like executives yo ^_^ i feel abit bad having to raise my hand out to ask my parents for money for formal wear ... bloody kewei kept calculating our BMIs ZZZ.
I NEED TO STUDY STOP PROCRASTINATING JACQ! YOU TOO, YOU YOU YOU TOO, GO DO WHAT YOUR SUPPOSED TO DO! NOW! NOW! NOW!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 || 8:20 AM
15/7
I'm so sorry CSA, but my bed w a combination of stormy weather is soooooo much moar appealg than you.
note to self: bee hoon < ee mian. next time stick to the latter.
wasted trip to clarke quay! angel ah, still talking about leading me. why we end up in tiong bahru ah?
i think i'm getting the hang of econs. the graphs are driving me nuts though. must revise more !!!!
I can't stop popping honey vicks. Stupid cheers got promotion 2 for 2.50$ so i bought two i gave a packet to angel to control myselffffffffff.
I luv tomyum kway tiao X)
I'm feeling lazzzzzzzzzzzy. but i gotta go run. SIGH
Monday, July 13, 2009 || 4:11 AM
Oneeeeeeeee fine day i won't even have to remind myself, it'd come naturally to meeeee. RIGHT RIGHT YES YES
Like how birds always sing their happy songs, like how the sun always cast it's rays onto earth.
Giant cuppa makes me a little .... sad ... :(
MUMMY COOKED AWESOME DINNER TODAY HOPEFULLY JUNWEI AND DAJIE DOESNT EAT EVERYTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Sunday, July 12, 2009 || 7:59 AM
i luv shopping in the market !!!
walao ey ate super alot within short time frame rifhan& her retarded cuzzie made me eat even more three swines working together
too bad angel wasnt there else it'd be four instead.
Her retarded cuzzie kept lying to other promoters saying she's married with a kid & everyone believed her.
150cm(i insist) hugging a 175cm = hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
Work on sat in an alien env w colleagues masked w straight faces wasn't a very enjoyable experience ...
got thru the day by looking at how kids entertain themselves by talking to themselves in the mirror (+ wishing i can be like them),
counting the number of people with my concentrated race (i lost count...). It's so funny how some people whenevr they see adidas nike
and puma they'll go ' OMG ADIDAS !!!!!! I LUV THEIR BAGS! ' .... They provide a contrast to the probable reaction me and angel will provide
'OMG ADIDAS, AGAIN?!!!!!????? .....'
OH YEZZZZZ fleamarkets & nice friendly people makes me happy. I think happiness is contagious, it can be diffused into the bodies of others.
I got a kimono tunic + 2 banglez + lotsa freebies for ... ELEVENBUCKAROOS ^_^v
Hee hee hee.
I can't wait to get my pay and buy dinner for mummy. I luv momsie :D
Thursday, July 9, 2009 || 9:14 AM
Yayyyyyy i got my pair of running shoes alreadyzzzz!
I can't wait for my kway tiao tomyum + flea market tmwr ^_^v (shit syah i'm addicted to your emotion)
make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race
“ Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I’d rather be your moon, so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn’t around.
Like a theatrical crew, they do all the shitty jobs offstage while what the audience appreciate are what they see- the actors/actresses. Come on, the crew will only be in sight for a mere say 5 seconds when all they do is to fucking bow. Who cares seriously? But they do what they like to do, and they find joy in it even though insufficient credit is given to them.
Bottom line is, life is unfair. Deal with it already.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 || 10:20 AM
Had a farewell dinner w her & the drama kias (+ a band kia) at chomps. All hail to the world's best CCA(to a certain extend, opinions might vary) As usual had tons of the fattening oily nonsense.
I was damn happy when i saw the lot of them !!! Khairi, Alvin, Denise, Jacqchoo, Minyi, Harris. Seriously ... I was like grinning all the way
while being kept entertained by their nonsensical humorours clever conversations. Of course what made me happier is the presence of food lah, duh.
Me: EH THIS ONE NICE TO EAT !!!
Denise: YAH! NICE NICE
Me: WOAH ARE YOU PRAISING ME
Denise: Yah... i trust your taste you trust mine what. there's one exception though
Me: Simi?
Denise : GUYS LAH
Me: HAHAHAHAH YAH come on.... our taste like water and fire
Okay anyway i have a funny joke from harris which i dont think'd be good to blog about because it'll seriously offend some people LOL
Denise: I realise the only time jacq is quiet is when she's eating ...
(Sidetracking, i just realised as I'm typing this, she's on a jetplane on her way to another country miles away from me. No more a single busride to get to see you.)
Uhhhhhh yeah, so we just talked cock sung some songs and went over to frolick for some awesome smoothies which Minyi insisted on warming my smoothie for me
to melt the ice so that it'd be nicer WALAO MINYI I KNOW YOU WANT TO DRINK LOR HAHA THINK I STUPID AH ! XD
And then we went to an isolated place to take (a hell lot of) pictures.
And on Monday, Angel came over to my place to chill for awhile before heading over to bugis to meet up with Xiaoqian, Denise, Kat for our usual sheesha-ing + dinner at Arab st. Denise oh denise, it'd be a bloody long time before you'll be inhaling charcoal smoke (good for you) or eating orgasmic roti tissue which you'll miss.
All the best to having meat patties and potatoes for meals. Okay fine I know i'm sucha stereotype, HAIYAH I JUST WANT TO MAKE HER FEEL LOUSY FOR DITCHING SPORE AIYA NOT WORKING OKAY I KNW HAIYAH AIYAH I SAD LA CAN :(
Oh yah hee hee denise baked brownies (coughs) for us it was so hard it'd break our faces when thrown at us but they say the brownie will break instead if they're thrown at me AIYAH IF U STAY I DONT MIND EATING YOUR LOUSY BROWNIES OKAY :'( sompa....
Oh yeah we were making alot of noise and i started to argue with denise our convo went smthg like this.
Me: Yah and you know that guy for how long only? Huh and you know me for how long? Then you went to meet him so often dont want to spend time with us ....
Xiaoqian: But at the start of every r/s sure honeymoon period
Me: XQ NO NO NO. Denise answer me.
Angel: AIYAH COME ON LA DENISE. YOU SHOULD KNOW, GUYS DONT LAST. GIRLFRIENDS WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU.
And then guess what, behind us is this lady, she butted into our convo and went ' YAH I TOTALLY AGREE. IT'S TRUE WHAT' . Coming from a 30years old lady who looks 20ish. And she was telling us to be careful whtevr we do because singapore is damn small and everybody is interconnected. LOL.
See how much the opposite sex has been disappointing females. Sighhhhhxzzzzzz.
OKAY ANYWAY I JUST RETURNED FROM THE AIRPORT TO SEND THAT BABE OF MINE OFF. Had dinner with her family and angel.
When we were eating her parents were complaining about her phone bill and how her handphone is glued to her hand regardless of whatever she's doing.
D's dad (to me&angel): That girl ah, forever sms-ing one ! She non stop one!
D's mum (to D's dad) : Daddy ah, denise is sms-ing the both of them lah (me and angel).
Me& Angel: *looks away*
KSC !! The next time we step into the airport together, please let it be a trip to bkk! I need to get out of singapore for awhile man... Denise yeo huey ting, you know why you're over at melbourne you know the reason you're there you know very well whats right and whats wrong. I hope you'll find someone as awesome as simon ^^ I've written down everything i wanna tell you in the letter ( actually its more like a recallation of whatevr we've done HAHA the list shall continue yes????) Oh yeah, please dont kiss in aussie museums even though they're more open minded there ... And damn i just remembered, i cant be calling you to ask about good places to have buffets and all....
Everything still seems so surreal. Its like if i pick up my phone right now and call you right now (2.48am) you'll answer and say ' bitch .... why are you calling so late???? '
I miss you and i'll always miss you.
OH WELL, everything happens for a reason ! (makes you happier if you believe in it)
See you december, till we meet again.
Love you dear,
<3