There's a gulf as wide as an ocean between should and want, & i'm drowning in it. It feels really good bringing home cooked food to work, a simple fare is the best, it doesn't only fill an empty stomach, it also fills the area pointing north from an empty stomach, with love and warmth :)
Thursday, September 24, 2009 || 9:37 AM
Reblogged from jacq choo's blog
Things I really like to do: 1)Spending time with my family. Recent family dinners have been great, quality time spent. A night where everybody forks out time, away from friends, work, studies, the computer to have precious time together, to update each other about life. To laugh and to enjoy good food together. This beats everything else.
2)Chilling by the poolside with friends after supper, laughing about everything. Bitching, gossiping, talking about everything nonsensical (like guessing whether causasians's pubic hair is blonde) . Just feeling comfortable with people you're most comfortable with; people you can spend quiet moments with. I like having HTHTs :)
3)Alone time in the library. Long busrides.
4)Exploring new places, like ann siang road, venturing to somewhere new.
6)Eating - good AND cheap food
8)Retail Therapy - when i've the cash. Flea markets. It's not going for cheap stuffs! It means shopping smart! ^_^
9)Watching theatrical productions
Favourite time of favourite days:
Okay actually this depends whether im working or studying. So skip.
My favourite colours :
1)Black (I'll wear another color when i find something darker than black) 2)Ash grey 3)Grey 4)Gold For other colors, no comments. Im neutral. Just no baby colors, like baby pink, baby blue. Pastel colors, or soft colors/tones/shades :\
I really like: 1)Jacynda (The girl i have a thousand apologies owed to, the only person who can make me/ seen me cry. Even though we don't talk like previous times, you've already rooted a place in my heart, and i believe that once someone successfully enters your heart, they will stay there forever, it might fade with time, but the love will always be there. I know action speaks louder than words, and Im truly apologetic that my actions aren't consistent and what i do frays away from what i say, but i know my heart, i know how it feels). Thank you, my very first best friend, my very first true friend. I am sorry, and I will love you forever.)
2)Angel, Denise, Jacq Choo, Ling Yu
(In no order) 3)Jean, Kaiting, Adeline
9)TP friends who makes my life less stressful + much enjoyment :)
10) + ^_^
++ Ville Valo & Angelina Jolie oh oh maddox too !! HOTTEST TODDLER EVER
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 || 7:47 AM
Because anything can happen anytime, anywhere, anyhow without the slightest hint for mental preparation to cushion the impact, this makes life so unpredictable, so fragile. Whenever something happens directly or indirectly, people might dwell on it for a few days, and flick it off, having the mentality that these things will never happen to them. But really, you will never know. Appreciate the people around you now, live life to the fullest, love deeply, laugh hard, don't ever take things for granted. Don't ever. Because if you do, you'll end up regretting. The bitterest tears shed are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
I shall ... save part of my pay and buy something for my dad next month :)
Sunday, September 20, 2009 || 7:29 PM
i am not cut out to wear those ultra soft contacts i just tore them again
|| 7:22 AM
I AM STUFFED TO THE BRIM AFTER WORK I INDULGED IN RED BEAN SOYA ICE PLUS PEANUT PANCAKE WOHHHH DAMN SHIOK CAN. I ALRD THOUGHT OF WHAT TO HAVE FOR TMWR'S LUNCH/DINNER TADA DA DA IT SHALL BE MACARONI SOUP HEE HEE HEE TONG XIN FEN !!!! SIAN OKAY LAH ACTUALLY I REGRET EATING SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE PUKING NOW SIGH OH YEZZ DID I TELL U I HAD A VERY VERY SHWEEEEEET DREAM LAST NIGHT? PLUS I HAD AN AWESOME DINNER YTD I AM BERRY HAPPY WITH ALL THE FIVE ALPHABETS CAPITALIZED HEE HEE HEE BYE BYE I LUV U ALL WHOEVER BOTHERS TO READ MUAH MUAH <3
hmmmmm i am wondering, how do you describe colors w/o using the name of the color itself? like, how do you describe pink? how do you describe beige? & do you agree w me tt sunflwrs are the happiest, most cheerful, sunshine blooms of the plant ever ? ^_^
Friday, September 18, 2009 || 10:54 PM
it's like animal crackers coming to life :D okay i know im not really an animal person i know friends hate it when i go over and they've to lock hide (sounds so much better) their dogs/kitties somewhr else ... i rmbr the other day at chomps and theres this enormous golden retriver and angel went like ' okay jacq DONT run i tell you DONT run hor' HAHAHAHA but eh i used to walk fiona's( my ex tution mate) dogszzzzz !!!!!!!!!! BUT THESE ARE DAMN CUTE!
|| 7:31 PM
i luv having dinner with bad boy(it's known) gone good + bad boy gone very good + good girl(subjective subjective) with bad boy+ good girl(subjective also) with becoming better boy+ memorylane girl dao girl but super friendly hee hee ^_^ the conversations are frigging hilarious but they make sense at the same time!
lust love money sex emotions hmmmmm. ' okay all the females, please keep quiet. my girlfriend is calling no no seriously seriously' (after talkg) ha hahahahahahahaahhahahahahahaah you should look at his face 'its not bcos im scared of her you know ... i ....' 'yeah we know, you respect her!' 'YEAH!' hahahahahah hahahahaha
'enjoy the pain!'
i did not !(cuz i was in a happy bouncy mood) but it was worth it ! ^_^
Thursday, September 17, 2009 || 8:27 AM
Nutella with jacobs wheat crackers = my all time favourite snack SUPER GOOD I TELL YOU. Whoever comes over i sure make for them like angel effa aisyah. Woah damn good lah hee hee im eating them now MUST control cannot eat too much !!! MUST HIDE THE NUTELLA UP!
'I'm doubting my sexuality bcos of them' HAHAHAHA Work's pretty ooooooo kay. I met lots of adorable people!
Scenario 1 : (a little boy with his younger sister walking to me) little boy : Hi can you help me ? Im looking for a red bag. For school. Im primary one. me: Okay! (points to the red bags we've got) little boy: Its too big for me (It is like half his size HAHAHAHA) me: That's the smallest we've got. Im sorry! little boy: it's okay. i will grow up and come back to buy. (and then he ran off with his little sister)
Still got alot others ah, theres this cute baby who will smile whenever i smile at him. Big eyes malay baby boy. I want to carry him home !!!!!!!!
HEE HEE HEEE I FEEL BERRY HAPPY TODAY AH DONT KNOW WHYYYYYYY ^_^ I even thought of what to have for lunch next mond! SHUI JIAO TANG WITH RICE !!!!!!! Vinegar vinegar ^_^^_^
MADZ & MY CONVO. It's so funny cuz we typed out the 'currentahlian' @ the same time.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 || 7:49 AM
WO ZHI DAO NI HEN XIANG WO MEN YE SHI HEE HEE WO MEN YE HEN XIANG NI WO YONG HAN YU PING YING YIN WEI NI BU MING BAI SO GO FIGURE OGAY NI HEN BEAT CHEE KE SHI WO MEN HEN XI HUAN NI HUI LAI DAI NI QU CHI BA KUT TEH WO MEN YUE ZHANG YUE FEI BU YONG JIN YIN WEI RU GUO MING TIAN SHI ZHE ME BAN ?????? (I'm sure you'd ask arnd what the hell the words on top means HAHAHAH *flicks hair)
|| 7:17 AM
I feel so deprived of (books as in novels, not accounting or marketing that kinda books you know- sigh i need some sort of reading therapy. Picture me comfortably lying on my bed with the aircon turned on snuggling under the sheets reading a well written novel. Okay the fact that i cant have that now before paying my library fines make me very very sian. ; cash - whoever says money cant buy happiness just doesnt know how to indulge in the goodness of retail therapy plus good food; rest - uh, work fullstop ) Tall girl is having constipation bananas, papayas, soya bean doesnt work for her soon she needs some slippery liquid up her a-hole. Please be honoured i thought of you while i was taking a crap. Two fickle minded people shopping for tidbits in a supermarket is kinda funny. It's like tall girl chose her stuffs alrd i havent and when i choose my stuffs alrd tall girl decided to change her mind and when she change her mind i look at more stuffs and then i will change my mind too and then we'll get confused and then we keep changing minds. I think we should change our minds literally. It'd do us some good sweetie XD
Sigh warehouse. Super mundane. Super alot of things to eat. Super weird people. Super cute people. Super rude people. Super singaporean people. I keep having ba kut teh with alot of lu zhi with chicken feet with peanuts with homemade lemontea LEI woahhhh hahahaha ha ha ha ha huuuuuuh :) :) :) :( :( :( I THOUGHT I SWEARING OFF SUPPER WHAT IS THIS ???? PLUS YAKUN PEANUT KAYA SEEMS T HAVE A SUPER STRONG CALLING RECENTLY zzzzzzzz when i finish my food i instantly regretttttttttt ... how ahhhh like this. It seems like a secret force is trying to stop me from getting to A T S. Whenvr i go there SURE close one. Make appt also have to reshedule but nehmind SOON YO WINK WINK ^_^ I think perhaps me and angel we're secretly male trapped in female bodies whenever we see a hot girl we will start talkg abt how _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ she is and uh blah blah blah blah. Tsk. I am a hundred percent noobie when it comes to arcade games, i keep losing. My tokens all keep flying~ Super funny we played till we found it a little absurd we started laughing damn hard. So silly.... 'finally i more man than you' < -- = -____-
list three things you dont like lei ooo i dont like err errr errr i dont like you know cucumber rot you know they look normal but you bite then like got soapy taste yah you also dont like apples inside got worms right zz
i suddenly think that my mum is giving up so much for her children. It's like whnevr she has free time she still has to ferry my sis & my brother arnd just coz they're too lazy to take the bus and whenever she asks us questions we'd answer her very rudely + impatiently sometimes we even like shout at her treating her w no respect why do we treat the ones we love like thattttttttt... she'd do it w/o any complains talking to us nicely sighhhhhh i feel so bad :( she'd spice up our meals just cuz eating rice everyday is so bland... putting in the effort and time to cook and prepare special treats. whnevr i drink apple cider vinegar + honey i have a deja vu feeling. oh yeah actions speak louder than w o ( you knw?) r d hahahahah s . joke r
i miss wearing my pinafore + my contrasting friend a.k.a white Iluma comma is a very very scary place exclaimation mark
All around me are familiar faces, Worn out places, Worn out faces, Bright and early for the daily races, Going nowhere, Going nowhere, Their tears are filling up their glasses, No expression, No expression, Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow, No tomorrow, No tomorrow, And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had, I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take, When people run in circles, It's a very very, Mad world, Mad world, Children waiting for the day they feel good, Happy birthday, Happy birthday, And I feel the way that every child should, Sit and listen, Sit and listen, Went to school and I was very nervous, No one knew me, No one knew me, Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson, Look right through me, Look right through me, And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had, I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take, When people run in circles, It's a very very, Mad world, Mad world, Enlarging your world, Mad world...
Gary Jules - Mad World
This song makes me think of how machine-like humans are, how similar yet different each indiviual can be. It makes me picture how everything in front of you can bob and sail away so easily, from your eyes. Like life is an illusion, something not too far away from a dream. For others, a nightmare.
Friday, September 11, 2009 || 7:51 AM
today's destruction day. i love how kids speak, with their eyes so full of hope. ' do you know where my daddy is ? '
Thursday, September 10, 2009 || 8:49 AM
TINY Emilie Darrigade is the world’s youngest tattoo artist - after inking a design on her dad’s arm at the age of just FIVE. Emilie etched the detailed picture of a bumble bee surrounded by a laurel crown on dad Dave’s forearm at a tattoo parlour. She chose the design herself because ‘Bumble Bee’ is her dad’s nickname for her.
Under the watchful eye of expert tattooist Robin Labreche, little Emilie filled in the black and yellow colour on the design as well as the green in the laurel. And now 34-year-old security guard Dave says Emilie has already designed his next piece of body art - a flaming skull and crossbones. Dave said: “Emilie was sitting on a chair watching when Robin asked her if she would like to tattoo her dad by filling in the yellow in the bee. “She jumped at the chance so they gloved her up and with Robin’s coaching she filled in the whole design without going outside the lines. “It was quite impressive due to the weight of the tattoo machine.” Dave, who has six tattoos, was having the picture inked into his arm at the Adrenaline tattoo parlour, in Montreal, Canada. And he says the sight of Emilie working on his arm caused quite a stir in the busy parlour. He said: “Everyone who was in the shop, and it’s a big shop, came to see Emilie at work and were all amazed and stunned at her relaxed demeanour. “Emilie has always been interested in all mediums of art and has always been curious about new art forms. “Now she says she wants me to get a new tattoo of a skeleton head with cross bones and fire so that will probably be our next project. “If she wants to work on that one then she can.”
|| 8:44 AM
'im not a complete idiot. some parts of me are missing'
dearest devil, you're getting better at this NOT BADDDDDDD HUH make me worry/paranoid/pissed/(@#*@*#@!(!#) for nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEWAYz, I WILL NEH ORDER MILO WITHOUT WATER ADD COFFEE INSTEAD. All lingyu's FAUlTTTT make me laugh while ordering then i couldnt say properly i only managed to say one word ' milo ' then i started laughing until cannot stop. Then aftr tt i ordered milo w/o water add coffee instead that persn thought i was playing a fool she bloody hell didnt take my order and gave me the pissed off face and said ' cannot '. I swear her reaction was like as if im ordering mcspicy in KFC tt kinda wtf you talking reaction you know !!!!!
'I LUV YOU JACKIE O' 'I LUV YOU RIFHAN O' 'IM RIFHAN B LA NOT O' 'OH YAH THEN WHY I O IS IT THE JACKIE O LANTERN' 'NO ITS THE LATE QUEEN. I LUV U JACKIE O'
Im like the joke of everythg today !!!! *inserts super sad face*
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 || 6:44 AM
yakult + a pax of choco for lunch chocolate foundue for dinner
i will keep a distance from chocolates now even though they were an instant orgasm for the tongue oh my god i am so sick of them now. i am fucking full but i dont feel satisfied cuz i didnt have decent food for the whole day urgh
hahahhaah jean friends thought kt was my boyf???
Monday, September 7, 2009 || 5:47 AM
I must understand the trail my mind wanders off to subconsciously will not exist it's existance is nil = zero/0
anyway! i played this truthology game w angel - we listed each other's pros & cons. I agree w one thing she stated 'you always want things to go your way' It's true, very true. I bear grudges silently(even when i appear not to) when things don't go the way i want to. I don't like giving in to others. Rawr.
Hee hee but i know you'll still love me no matter what nonsense i throw you right? I answer for you lah okay : RIGHT! (-___-)
i went town w namesake a few days back and all the things we were expecting turned their back on us. Food, borders, bus rides blah blah but luckily i've her as great company so everything was still good! Flea was good too! 8 bux for 2 items deal = thumbs up + big grin. Please continue to love me fellow jacqie ^_^
CLICK CLICK BUTTON (SPOIL) TMWR!!!!!!!! XD
Saturday, September 5, 2009 || 7:57 AM
There she goes, again
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 || 9:04 PM
Ibnlkingz! Ibnlkingz! Ibnlkingz! Ibnlkingz! Ibnlkingz! Ibnlkingz! (!!!!!!!!) I'm so eggcited with my to be accomplished plans ^_^ SO EGGCITED LEI XD At class chalet now. I think i slept the most, alongside w kewei. THE TWO PIGS LOL. I just had chocolates + mac's hotcakes for breakfast. Haiyoooo i think i had an overdose of chocos. Feel like puking now. NEWAYZ, have been wokng for the past few days. Up on my feet for long hours, the ballz of my soles hurt like *@$&@!$$$. But bcoz of the last three characters must perserve on. Met this absolutely fucked up customer aiya shan't stoop to his level by involving my emotions w nonsensical people.
//Kk i hungry liaozz xx
Okay i just got back from the chalet and i just had my satisfying fill of suspension of consciousness. I had this dream which was damn real. And it's one of the few times i can actually remember my dreams so well (i can even rmbr the minute details omgggggg). It was revolving around a scenario which required my close friends/family to be in there and i remembered the people who're in there LOL namely : Angel, denise, jacq choo, jacynda, my parents. When i woke up my first thought was ... lol okay this is weird, somebody's missing from the dream. xx
If you wanna be happy, be. Its your own choice hellooooo???? Be nicer to yourself in the end the only person who'd be there with you is only ... you. Lol click to read. Kaye actually thought we can kick people out of convos LOL Hahahahah befr exams, when i came back from the toilet i got labelled by some words, confirmed by an arrow :( :(