"Jacqueline Koh
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"
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Wednesday, December 30, 2009 || 7:29 PM



What's a new year without new year resolutions?!
This is the first official year which i actually sat down to think about it. Hopefully this enthusiasm will last for the rest of next year!

1)Be happier
Hmmmmmm, how do you define happy though? Well, i'm sure my life will be full of laughters with jackass classmates around (think kellyann, michelle, jason, elynn) & superheroes like angel, rifhan, aisyah & denise (pfffffttttt :( )^_^ Of course it's also about the ability to see hope in the darkest moments and be able to differentiate what is truely important in life.

2) Be more toned
ROCKCLIMBING. Whahahahahaha jeff!!!

3) A better GPA
This is interconnected to 'be more hardworking and be consistent'. When i say be more hardworking and consistent, it also means to not take a day as it comes because every day matters. I should go to the library twice a week to finish up tutorials/revise lecture notes.

4) Spend more time with family
Espically mummy. Spend quality time. Not just asking mummy to bring me to thai express just so she can pay for my aweSUMMMM mmMMmm meals.

5) Ink
THINK BEFORE I INK (not that i regret, i know i will never regret. but i've a strong feeling i might just do things without thinking. I want to be able to say that i dont regret the same day same time next year from now). Don't succumb to impulse.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 || 8:26 AM


Is it a good thing to be able to hope against all logics? Or is it just an impractical choice to do so.
Does anybody want to gather a handful of bees and keep them in a jar and carve my skin like how an ice sculptor would sculpt masterpieces? :)

xx
A young man asked his grandfather why life had to be so difficult sometimes. This was the old man’s reply.

Grandfather says this: “In life, there is sadness as well as joy, losing as well as winning, falling as well as standing, hunger as well as plenty, badness as well as goodness. I do not say this to make you despair, but to teach you reality. Life is a journey sometimes walked in light, sometimes in shadow.”

Grandfather says this: “You did not ask to be born, but you are here. You have weaknesses as well as strengths. You have both because in life there is two of everything. Within you is the will to win, as well as the willingness to lose. Within you is the heart to feel compassion as well as the smallness to be arrogant. Within you is the way to face life as well as fear to turn away from it.”

Grandfather says this: “Life can give you strength. Strength can come from facing the storms of life, from knowing loss, feeling sadness and heartache, from falling into the depths of grief. You must stand up in the storm. You must face the wind and the cold and the darkness. When the storm blows hard you must stand firm, for it is not trying to knock you down, it is really trying to teach you to be strong.”

Grandfather says this: “Being strong means taking one more step toward to top of the hill, no matter how weary you may be. It means letting tears flow through the grief. It means to keep looking for the answer, though the darkness of despair is all around you. Being strong means to cling to hope for one more heartbeat, one more sunrise. Each step, no matter how difficult, is one more step closer to the top of the hill. To keep hope alive for one more heartbeat at a time leads to the light of the next sunrise, and the promise of a new day.

Grandfather says this: “The weakest step toward the top of the hill, toward sunrise, toward hope, is stronger than the fiercest storm.”

Grandfather says this: “Keep going.”


all i hope is that i wont die in the storm...

Monday, December 28, 2009 || 8:24 AM


My brother very funny. I wanted to cook maggi mee and i used the water heater to boil the water then he came up to me and insisted i use the stove instead because he said water heater, electric kettle and air con is very energy consuming.
WTF LAH I WANT TO USE FOR 5 MINS ONLY ALSO KB SO MUCH!
I FEEL VERY RESTLESS NOW SAVE ME SOMEBODY


Sunday, December 27, 2009 || 11:42 PM

Fastforward a few days, just cuz i feel like blogging this...
2009 has been a life changing year for me.
New found friends, addictions, realizations, changes, experiences, relevations, school.
Now it's time for closure. Goodbye 2009.

Saturday, December 26, 2009 || 5:49 PM


Somebody has a fugly tanline XD
I love you syah!!!!! Dont shop so much keep track of your receipts & i'll love you more!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 || 10:10 PM

Hmmmmmmmmm...


|| 6:37 PM


Not scared die meh!!!!

|| 3:30 AM


One of my favourite girl is in the plane now :)
'Blackboard Blunders: Spelling Slip-ups and Homework Howlers'
My hobby is insest. I learnt about all kinds of insest from a book I bort at a bring and buy sale. I speshly like aunts.

/ My brother very clever, know i'd steal his ipod so he locked it. Cheeeeeeeeze jeez...
++
SO FRIGGING ADORABLE!!!!




Sunday, December 13, 2009 || 6:57 AM











When the storm's over and the ship is sailing straight again, the people on board will be temporarily relieved, and habouring thoughts that the same shit might happen again is absolutely normal. It's quite sad to live with restriction, to have to think quickly and suspiciously before you speak, to feel the distance, to be on your guard to put on a brave front. It's tiring, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. All these will mould your future character, it will turn you into a stronger and more determined person.
After all, we are a combined effort of everbody we know, right ?
Most importantly, experience is to be gained and remembered.

xx

I've had quite a number of super retarded msn conversations which i kept reminding myself to screen shot but i keep pressing the 'x' button argh hahahahah now i can't even remember what i was laughing so hard about. Zzz
Went to scape for flashlightbatteriess's flea. It was awesome! Dont know why michelle kellyann pam they all say nothing but me & angel were digging like mad !!! I bought like ... 4 tops for like ... 20BUX WHAHAHAHAHA.
Work yesterday was allright. Warehouse was frigging packed with people there was so bloody many people everybody just kept helping themselves to the moutain of shoes... I just stood and stared, wondering who i should approach >.<

Anyway, i was supposed to report work but some shit happened so i couldnt leave the house. Called angel and told her to inform my sales rep cuz i couldnt get hold of her. Sales rep asked me if possible, to report work at 7pm to help with the packing up and i agreed.
At 5pm, she called me.
A: Eh jacq wake up
J: Uhh...How you know i sleeping?
A: I dont know, i just had this feeling..
J: Omg???
A: XYZ said that you surely wont come back for packing but i told her that when jacq promise something, she'd do it.
J: Awww... Love you !!!

I miss year 2006.

Thursday, December 10, 2009 || 1:30 AM


Things to do (very very very mundane stuffs, urgh)
1. Head to bank
2. Head to hg's library & find a cosy corner & start absorbing knowledge for tmwr's paper.

I'm super unmotivated i've no frigging idea why i feel so weak all over now there's seriously not much energy left and it's not tiredness, it's like my body's gonna die on me anytime. Freak, i was still happily munching away KFC a few hours befr ...
Hello jacq choo if you're reading this (anyway i miss our supper dates alot tee hee), i found a book which is better than mitch albom's, jodi picoult's, and whatever author you're gonna shoot me now. It's 'A million little pieces' by James Frey. If you've already read it, shit you real bad cuz you didnt introduce it to me. If you haven't, you can thank me later ^_^ hahahahahahahahaha heeeee.
A super bimbotic conversation w wenqin
'Eh you reading what book?'
'Oh *shows her book cover*, it's damn good tell you'
'OH, i have this book! I read it like 3 years ago...'
'Seriously?? Yah!!! I can't stop once i start URGH'
The highlight was the convo isn't this ... but this ...

'Eh you got read hummingbird before?'
'Huh? Hummingbird? I only heard of to kill a mockingbird before ...'
'OH ITS MOCKINGBIRD NOT HUMMINGBIRD'
hahahahahahahahahaha oh my godxzxz...
+ kelly ann was calling KFC delivery when me & elynn was sitting beside her in the library studying. Funny siaxzxzxz ' I want to order family fest'

On a lighter note, to fight against is an acknowledgement of existance subconsciously.

I need energy.




Monday, December 7, 2009 || 10:20 PM







Holy moly crap.


I am officially obsessed with maddox and shiloh.


I am obsessed with people who doesnt even know my existance.


I am obsessed to the extent which i can google them (whatever!!!) for hours.


Holy moly.


I have an exam tomorrow.
// i am still googling .....







|| 6:41 PM


Quite alot happened during the weekend. Guilt's overwhelming me, cuz i've been injecting my mum with a tremendous amount of stress load on top of the one she has already been facing. Oh well, it sucks to have a daughter growing up the exact opposite way you want her to.

I'm sorry, but if given a choice, i'd still do the same thing.

Econs paper was allright, tougher than i thought though. I'm really panicking for RA now. I know nuts. Serves me right.
Psychology's a killer. Luckily i'll have group project to boost everything up.
I NEED TO BATHE AND STUDY NOW OKAY BYE
Blue jazz yesterday was awesome, next time, i'll stick with my usual choice of
drink -___-

After exams, rockclimbing, kayaking, tanning, working WHEEEEEEE


Friday, December 4, 2009 || 7:19 PM


Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'.


|| 9:07 AM



80bux for a constant reminder wheeee ^_^
okay now i got to complete the two psycho quizzes befr i hit the bed so stop procrastinating you lousy girl ....
i need to be happier, oh come on please jacq don't be such a loser stoning your life away!!!
bluejazz was awesome wheeeeee
okay uhhhhhhhhh now quiz time befr i satisfy the basic level of maslow's hierachy = psysiological needs HAHAH :\
I need clothes.... :'(










I keep listening to this even though i've no idea what they're talkg abt!!



Wednesday, December 2, 2009 || 6:27 AM


To spite angel & derrick, my pm was ' i support MAN U the most' cuz angel's was 'i support arsenal the most' and derrick's was 'i support liverpool the most'

And then .... today in school, weilin (a hardcore liverpool fan) said 'Jacq ... i saw your pm ytd, you like man u?' ' when i saw that ... i was abit, you know .... angry....' (IN THAT WEILIN-ISH TONE HAHAHAHAHA)

+ my cousin started telling me bout the history behind man u -____-

[kokyeow] says:
>.<>
Starbucks fling says:
hahahahahah manchester utd la
[kokyeow] says:
no in the 80s man utd went to munich, germany, for a game plane crash
Starbucks fling says:
huh???? so whrs the link?
[kokyeow] says:
then eventually some assholes made a chant/ song i 4got exactly wad it is but when it's shortened sth like "Man, U're not coming home"
Starbucks fling says:
are you talking nonsense to me
[kokyeow] says:
henceforth, hardcore fans do not like Man utd to be referred to as Man UNO serious it's not a well known fact but i swear its real
Starbucks fling says:
LOL okay
[kokyeow] says:
sry, wrong
Starbucks fling says: -_____-
[kokyeow] says:
is 1960 not 80
Starbucks fling says:
HHAHAHAHAHAH (like i care my dear cousin) HHAHAHAHAHAH
[kokyeow] says:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Munich_air_disaster
Starbucks fling says:
......


Tuesday, December 1, 2009 || 6:33 AM

"It is one of the secrets of Nature in its mood of mockery that fine weather lays heavier weight on the mind and hearts of the depressed and the inwardly tormented than does a really bad day with dark rain sniveling continuously and sympathetically from a dirty sky."


Let's welcome the december cold weather shall we? (;