'I kind of miss the times we play ball at kovan, although you all always late then make me wait for an hour'
'Funny how i won't get angry'
'You know why you don't?
'Because you love us'
I miss ruiqing, i miss good old days of which i'd bounce my way to her place with a knee length skirt fluttering by my thighs. I miss the ones i know loves me the most, cares for me geuinely and mean what they say even though sometimes it's as akward as hell. You know why i'm able to say all these? It's because coupled with words, there's always ACTIONS.
Sad to say, i'm the one who keeps disappointing, over and over again
However, i'll be staying stone still where i am now because my conscience will not allow me to do things which will make me appear like a two faced snake. What i'm doing/thinking/feeling now is totally not in sync with what i believe(d?) in. It's funny how i trample over whether to add the 'd' behind believe because i'm not sure anymore.
Maybe i do, maybe it's selective denial.
Right now, i'm happy though, because happiness hasn't betrayed me yet