"Jacqueline Koh
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"
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Friday, April 23, 2010 || 3:11 AM


Thursday, April 22, 2010 || 5:39 PM

I cannot believe i am getting so emotional over the novel's protagonist - who is a fictional character. Hmmmm have you ever forced yourself to read the book slower because you dont want it to end so soon?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 || 5:38 AM

Life is so beautiful death has fallen in love with it. And this kind of love, is a jealous and possessive love which grabs at what it can.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 || 4:15 PM

3rd day & no motivation for school. Oh god, someone save me.
I should head down and ta bao yellow noodles soup for breakfast. Soupy and hot stuffs always make me feel better. I love yellow noodles!!! After eating, gonna go back to sleep. Don’t know why the hell I automatically woke up at 5ish, sure gonna be damn sleepy in the afternoon.
Need to curb my money consuming addiction. And I thought I was a little over it. *spits*
Bought lychee liq for x2 the price arghhhh got the kena cheated feeling yknw :(
Downloaded a couple of new songs hmmmmmmm…. Must press the little red button on my top right I cannot expose myself to ink (for now) arghhhh so tempting !!!!!!! *sulks*
It’s a bleh-ish morning. Raaaaaaaah.

Went over to rif's crib recently, as usual, good company + awesome music coupled with an italian meal whahahahah and of course the company i had = bangup ahhhhh.

Rif : Yknw sometimes i think i'm innocent sometimes i think im not
Jacq: *points to cosmo* not *points to seventeen* innocent
Rif: The two of them, they have always been a question mark. Question markssssss
Jacq:Yeah... As much as they have been your exclaimation marks huh, unfortunately
Rif: Whahahahaha you complete me jacq
Jacq: What about the people who are commas?
Rif: Is pasta okay??
Jacq: Of course!
Jacq: Whahahahaha is there dessert?
Rif: Me
Jacq: WHAHAHAHA just the way i like it HAHAHA
*stabs myself and die*

Friday, April 16, 2010 || 8:32 PM

I had a horrible nightmare today. In my nightmare, i saw my brother in his toddler years wearing totally mismatched clothes i saw that his socks has this printing 'HC' --> his current school. He was bouncing around and then suddenly he was in the middle of the road and i dreamt that he nearly got knocked down by a blue taxi...

I don't want to spend on food anymore please. Whahahaha i need a new wallet.. My current one has a hole in it (literally) Pun intended...
Transport is killing me. Very expensive leh with every tap ...
Rifhan brought me to the dark side of splurging in lingeries. This one is gunshot plus counterattack on the wallet....
:'( :'( :'(

Monday, April 12, 2010 || 8:35 PM

I think i drank too much, my body is taking an adverse effect on the sudden abuse. I felt like shit for like 2 days (this counting the third bloody hell...) Next time i'm gonna work around my limits, this is madness.
Anyway, sujie & i were talking about the anderson secondary culture we observed. Or rather, the 3/6'08 culture. Whenever classmates try to compliment/show concern, the other party will be defensive and react in a sarcastic manner but in their hearts, they know pretty damn well they care. This is how we react. It's true.
Picture :
Me & Jean
Me& Effa
Me& Sujie
Me& Alvin
Me& Khairi
Me& Yusaku
Me& (goes on...)

'Eh your top very nice leh...'
'Yah lah what you want now?'
'Knnccb say your top nice you say what i want now'
'Hannah hannah keep your comments to yourself your jeans also not bad lah'
I have a permanent reminder, hooked with my keys. A suit in black and a gown in white. The reason why i put them there is because, whenever i try to dig for an entrance in my house, the metal figures always make it easier. So much easier.

Sometimes, we dont even recognize things even when they hit us in the middle of our eyes.

Sunday, April 11, 2010 || 4:40 AM

Oh god, my much needed rest. My bones are aching my muscles feel super sour sigh...
Picture a cosy hotel room, comfy bed&sheets, wrap myself under the cocoon of warmness and just let the world fade away ...
The whole family has headed out to have a good dinner, leaving me to catch up with my sleep (sigh when i walk i feel like my head is dropping) light + heavy @ the same time.
Now i'm awake ... i feel like crap not joining them for dinner...

'You switch it off and plug it out' Whahahahaha i like this effa, happy 18th, airhead.

Friday, April 9, 2010 || 7:22 PM

I think before trying to understand others i must first start with myself first :)
Anyway, my grandmother bought me a necklace with my initial on it. Sweetness to the max!!!
& i realized something, the reason why i'm doing certain things, sums down to fear. Fear.

Thursday, April 8, 2010 || 12:07 AM


Have you ever been lost in a different world
Where everything you once knew
Is gone
And you find yourself powerless
With everything that exists
You're numb

Will I ever break free

I searched my world but I can't find you
You're standing there but I can't touch you
Try to talk but the words are just not there
I can feel a sense of danger
You stare at me like I'm a stranger
Paralyzed and you don't seem to care
The demons in my dreams

If you become a nobody
Blind, to your family
Who would you be?
And life has gone into reverse
Re-living every hurt
Along the way

Everything that you fear is calling you and drawing near

I searched my world but I can't find you
You're standing there but I can't touch you
Try to talk but the words are just not there
I can feel a sense of danger
You stare at me like I'm a stranger
Paralyzed and you don't seem to care
The demons in my dreams

Wake me up and let's go, yeah
I'm about to explode

I searched my world but I can't find you
You're standing there but I can't touch you
Try to talk but the words are just not there
I can feel a sense of danger
You stare at me like I'm a stranger
Paralyzed and you don't seem to care
The demons in my dreams

|| 12:07 AM

What a dream. If dreams come true, i'd smile. If reality is the opposite of dreams, i'd .... still smile.

Why oh why didn't we have that conversation a month ago?
'Do you think i'm crazy?'
'Yes i think you are. But you know what?'
All the best people are
You're not in wonderland anymore, Alice.

Sunday, April 4, 2010 || 5:32 AM

The best kind of friend is the kind who you're able to sit in silence comfortably and walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. The best kind of friend is also the kind whom, when you have problems, not only listens to you, but also gives you an overview of the bigger picture and guides you to make your own decisions.

i'm glad i've some of them around