"Jacqueline Koh
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"

Wednesday, September 8, 2010 || 8:41 AM

Random thoughts/ conversations/ feelings of the week/past week :
I've no idea why when things seem so bleak and within control, a part of me still has this clinging confidence that one day, it will all turn out to be a blessing in disguise.
I don't know how to articulate this feeling. I just feel it, and it seemed to have stayed for a long time. Of course, a girl can hope can't she ? :)

(I just typed a chunk and backspaced everything)

You know, i realized that i dont really jot down everything here i want to say. Perhaps it's because i dont really know how to put my intensified feelings into meek words or what. Perhaps i should start keeping a diary.

Gotten new ink, my dad brushed out a comment of how im gonna handle other people whose gonna enter my life in the future. I told him that if people are gonna be so shallow and judgemental, it's for them to deal and it's not gonna affect me.
Sometimes in life, we gotta jump off cliffs and build our wings on the way down.
I'm really growing tanner and tanner. Maybe i should start the habit of applying sunblock. Stitch says if i dont im going to turn into the color of my bag :'(
Went to have lobster noodles at lucky plaza it's frigging awesome and cheap. The uncle who i think is the boss of the store kept talking to me and stitch. In one conversation, he managed to identify with what tug at both our heartstrings. After he walked away, stitch told me that whatever he said reminds her of me and a part of the convo reminds her of her. Sad but true.

I keep having recurring dreams.

I'm holding onto the edge of the word karma. Im starting to believe in it. I've no idea how it works though. Energy forces? How? Then again, human beings fail to understand almost everything. All i know is that it happens, alot. Maybe it's just a coincidence. Maybe more people will believe in karma if the word karma isnt used. It's like how they say what goes around comes around. I dont understand how it works, but i think i sorta believe in it.

Came across this :

"In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people's home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!"
— Woody Allen