"Jacqueline Koh
Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"

Tuesday, November 30, 2010 || 8:45 AM

Everybody has an overload of things spiraling through their heads, making it a clutter, a clutter of mess, a shithole filled with bits& pieces of "maybe it matters" & "it matters" & "it really matters" & "im affected", "i'm quite affected", "im bloody affected". Everybody's humans, messes will clear and declutter themselves with time, and after some time, you will start to look back and laugh at whatever you're worrying about now because this is sooooo insignificant " what was i thinking about ?!"But right now, time time and day this very second as i'm typing this i know good things come and good things go, bad things occur all the time and complaning and whining is the loser's way out. I wished...

.....Wishes dont really come true anyway i tried once at the fountain it came true but the other 2 it didn't, i probably shouldnt have told the rest my wish came true because the godly powers heard me boasting about it, and took away my bleak fortune which lasted for abit. I should have held on to my tiny little secret a little harder, i shouldnt have let it slip off my mouth so easily. That's the thing about me. Things slip by too easily.

Sigh

Monday, November 29, 2010 || 3:22 AM

Reblogging from jacq choo's blog :

Someone out there loves you.
Someone out there will love you.
Someone out there is waiting to be loved by you.

Discuss.
From a junior's blog (Cheryl's)

If you already have someone you love and someone who loves you, now, does it matter who will love you or who is waiting to be loved by you out there or in the future?

It's just all unappreciated and un-reciprocated love. Unless it's your own children, of course.

By the way I've always disliked the lyrics of a particular Taylor Swift song (You belong with me)

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Person singing this really has an inflated ego!!! Oh baby why cant you seeeee, you're not sexy enough, not accomplished enough(people cheer capt lehhh you stupid bleachers) and probably don't understand Guy enough. Song is just for soothing egos of losers(those who lust for another's boyfriend) everywhere.

When a relationship breaks up, all the acquaintances see is how flawed the other half is. If I'm the friend of the girl, I'll probably comfort her and say it's alright he doesn't deserve you because he's flawed - {lists out flaws}. But my friend is imperfect too, and HIS friends are probably criticizing her the same way I am him.

I do honestly think that there must be certain characteristics that one person like about the other, and that's how they get together. It can be as simple as, she looks vulnerable, i want to protect her. She's pretty, I want to be with her. He's kind and unassuming, I want to be with him. He makes me happy (through flirty smses LOL), so we should get together.

Then comes the deeper understanding where vulnerable becomes whiny, pretty becomes shallow, vain, kind and unassuming becomes weak willed, flirty-happy becomes, well, flirty-jealousy. You find out one day that his/her traits that made you want to fall in love with her are not longer good enough to sustain the relationship. Then comes the breakup.

So sad isn't it! If only people realise what they want before they plunge right in.

But still, our tender age IS supposed to be all fun and flirty and endless stream of meaningless relationships, only that I don't think it's THAT fun if you see people crying left and right. If you didnt care, you wouldnt be crying.

xx
p.s/ The first and only thing i want to do when i see Jacq Choo's bf is to salute him because before she met him i thought it was quite impossible for her to find someone who will be able to meet up to her expectations (im not implying that she has rocket sky high expectations and will only date someone smart, handsome, caring bla bla bla blablabla) but she is definately difficult to handle. And very very intellectual.
Sooo anyway, today....Today i literally stared at the pouring rain at some un-stated void deck for about 90 mins, thinking, thinking, thinking and reflecting about whatever im doing in life, whatever happened, whatever i feel i should be doing, whatever i shouldnt. Rain always give a sad yet calming effect on human beings. I was in a wonderful state of peace within myself yet strangely sad (you understand?) while my brain was hooking on strange bits of memories everywhere.I should do this more often.

Sunday, November 28, 2010 || 9:37 AM

26/11/10

After work, went prawning with Farid, Tayorn& Benson. My virgin experience! Intially i thought prawning was really boring, but it's quite fun, espically when you successfully pull up a prawn^_^

I think our final catch tallied up to 30? 20? ish prawns, with one of the biggest prawns in the pond which Benson the Pro caught. Thumbs up! :D

27/11/10

Madz, Angel & Bryan came over to my place to bake for Jason. Baked nutella cupcakes! It was fucking good! Nutella never fails ;)

Headed over to bar bar for his birthday treat. Yes it's bar bar again! Hahahahah! Brought the prawns over so benson the chef could cook it. He cooked it the laksa sambal way! Fucking good! Goshhhhhh. Seriously never lie! It was epic good! Love it ttm!!!!!!!

Thank you bb mel for the super funky and lovely card thank you for the effort! Never receieved such a nice handmade card before ^_^ When i think of marks & spencers i think of you <3

You're my nutella to my bread, soya sauce to my sushi and bacon to my subway!

Lastly,

p.s/ sorry i'm too lazy to position pics in chronological order!

Thursday, November 25, 2010 || 7:09 AM

Overslept, skipped thurs lectures for the third week already. Sigh. Wake up messages and calls don't seem to help. The next week i'll sleep at 10pm on wednesday night.

U-Theatre lesson was normal, went through scripts. Keep having this nostalgic feeling about my past O'lvl drama crew. They were the best hands down. Best people to work with, best people to goof around & have fun, best people to do props/sets/rehearse with, best people to do improvisation with because we'll be bursting out with laughters with our colliding nonsense. Crazy sideas, impressive visual settings. Def a helpful bunch. Such a different grp of people coming tgt but we knw how to work our differences out.

Sigh.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day, school, meeting w someone, work.

sigh, why didnt i fall in love with nature/travelling earlier?

i dont mind harsh weather conditions, i dont mind rundown shabby huts, i dont mind mosquitoes just give me a peek of these wonderful wonders.

I have a secret fantasy of being caught in a fire, being caught in a tornado, earthquake, snowstorm, sandstorm, volcano eruption, massive floods.

Just let me get out of all these alive and non disfigured i'll be ever thankful for the experience.

be careful of what you wish for as you just might get it

yes please

Wednesday, November 24, 2010 || 8:42 AM

Heard the book "Perks of being a wallflower" by Steven Chbosky is going to be directed into a movie?! (& emma watsons's in it? sorry i know her as the burberry girl, not as one of the HP cast :\) Another one of my fav books down, starred into a real life situation played by human beings in action. Just waiting for a million little pieces, just waiting for that. Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury would make an awesome movie too!

|| 7:40 AM

Check out these RMT TP posters!

Dont you agree with me that they're really nice? Be sure to visit 1st Avenue! ;)

Just had a small talk with my parents regarding the setting up of a chalet in Sentosa somewhen during Dec, a small gathering for my aunties side and my family. Main pt is to spend some quality time with my granny. Hopefully she'll be livelier and happier when she steps out of the house to somewhere different. I really hope this works out. This is my indirect manner of showing i care towards her. As y'all know, i'm not someone who is very affectionate ....

On a lighter note, i'm feeling so much healthier now! Can't wait to hit the gym yo !!!!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010 || 9:57 AM

It's a blessing to have friends who bother to organize, make plans, surprise you on your special day. Thank you, for making my day a blessed and special one. Thank you all, for loving and bothering :}
Sooooo anyway, i turned 18 ;) on the 21st nov.

On the 20th, hi tea date with yion, hafiz, michelle& jason.

Went to carousel, before meeting them, i had a bloody bad day. Had some issues going on at home& was sick. Texted them to suggest pushing the lunch date back because i couldnt bear going to town with a swollen red eye (yes i was crying & i had horrible eye infections)
After some thoughts though, i felt that it'd quite nasty to just crash their plans for me. Well, i was glad i went because the wonderful 4 made my saturday a very complete and happy one :)
Thank you to all of you for the wonderful chocolate cake& treat :} & thank you to my dearest stitch for the card and corset blouse. A friend who understands you inside out is really a gem, thank you for understanding my taste in clothes, boys, food, moods, philosophy in life through & through. You put myself to shame sometimes :)
Thank you to all the sweethearts.

After our satisfying meal, we went to dfs to shop around for abit. Hafiz really understands class. We went into a hermes boutique, and the sales assistant was horrid to us, he enquired for an item and the sales person replied nastily 'NO, i have no idea'. What kind
of service attitude was that? She couldn't be bothered to help call and locate the merchandise somewhere else. Looking down on us because we're teenagers? Can't be bothered to serve us? Hermes gets it's name not only from their top notch merchandise, they gained their fame through their high standards of retail service.
It was a downright fail. Hafiz asked the lady for her name and thanked her. The lady was shocked because as all retail associates know, when a customer requests for your name, it's either a tick or cross. Guess we all know what grade it was. Her service attitude immediately
changed. Ney eh, too late for that.

Grabbed some macaroons from TWG, bought some for my parents as well. Shopped at wheelock and ION for abit as well. Bought a russian red lippy from MAC. The shade looked surprisingly normal on me, or at least i felt so. It helps that reviews says it's the perfect true red for all skin tones. Love.

On 21st, it was a first time celebrating my bd with ksc even though we've known each other since i was 15, about 2 years ish, due to various reasons. Met for breakfast/lunch, i totally slept through my entire day into the early afternoon. Only woke up when the very clever
ksc called my house and asked my sis to wake me up. Damn cute lah she seriously!!!! She brought along a pop cracker and popped it in public and people just stared. I love it when my friends dont mind making a fool out of themselves. I love it when they're not self conscious :)
Walked around abit at the neighbourhood mall, went back to her place to help her build something fantastic-ly inspired by someone LOLLLLLL ssshhhhh.
Hehehehehe, thank you for your floral top & card (so sweeeeeeeeet CAN DIEEEEE!) & the pretz biscuits (fucking good i swear!) & the LAMEBEAR HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
seriously!!!!!!!! It's sitting on my table is my scarecrow sitting on yours ms fellow scorpio? ;)

Very creative ahhhhhhh, i gave her her present she 'replied' to me.

Hahahahahaha! Check out our gifts to one another!

Went home, Eski bar's plans were cancelled because of school the next day. Thanks kelly & elynn for wanting to spend my birthday with me though :}
So sweet of you guys! :} Even though kel keeps tagging me in her ANNOYING videos! But i like i like, makes me laugh :}

On the day of which i was 18 & 1 year old, my class clique (or so i call it), or rather, project members {Hafiz, Mich hahahaah thank you both for celebrating my birthday twiceeeee lollll! + janice + pammy) had lunch at hot tomatoes @ somerset 313 :) It was a pre celebration for Janice & a post celebration for me. ANYWAY, the beef was awesome! And the price's really affordable as well! A soup, main course (of steak+ prawns+ spag) + an ice tea for 16$?
It's a killer espically when the food surpasses expectations! Shopped around abit @ Zara & f21. I realize i've this thing for outerwear (blazers, vests, drapes) nowadays. It must be an influence from Mr Fizz & my stitchy stitch.

After lunch, bought some fresh flowers for my lovely tall tanned lovely babe& headed to her place. After alot of squeezing and hugging, she asked me to head to her room and put my bag down first. When i opened the door, i just had to say that i was sooooooo surprised to see someone sitting on her bed (with whipped cream and strawberries). Kinky much? You jealous right! Hahahahahha nah, just kidding. I saw angel sitting on her bed! I was so surprised i closed the door and went out, and then opened the door again to double check.
Gosh !!!!!!!! Hahahahah! You dont know how great it feels for the three of us to have some chill and hangout time again! Thank you my two lovely babes. Watched music videos & a movie all day long. Took (coughs) (coughs) (coughs) beeooooooaaaaauuutiful pictures, & indulged in our rah rah rah ahahahahahhaah talk ;)
Thank you sweethearts for the necklace & the cake. Drowned the heart and the bunny down ^_^ Words speak so much louder when they represent something, it screams 'EAT ME AND FEEL IT'.
xx

Thanks my dearest bar bar crew for calling me and wishing me one by one through the phone. Heheheheh thank you for spamming my fb post UH!!!!!!
Thank you mel my baby in advance ;) & thank you 2r02 for singing today during trading! Thank you alvin for calling me all the way from aussie,
xie xie ni for staying up even though you were dead tired from your camp work :}

I can't wait to fucking DRIVE!