Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting around for somebody to give you flowers"
I realize, out of 5 people who made up my life, i dont talk to 4 anymore
Wednesday, December 15, 2010 || 7:36 AM
Hi, i miss you, I miss your humor, & how my mum adores you.You are my role model& I look up to you. That day when you walked down the aisle with your beautiful bride, I was sure, she is going to be one of the most blessed woman ever.I wish i could shower you both with my blessings. But i couldn't bear to watch this scene unfolding, so i didnt show up. I'm sorry.Your happiest day, is also one of the most heart wrenching day of my life.I also wonder whether if that particular day, i passed you that particular something, would things be different?The keyring which is supposedly a memento, i 'stole' it from my mum, and hung it with my keys. I'm afraid to forget you.But from the bottom of my heart, i know she's the one who can give you happiness.I miss you.I regret that we don't even talk now.
Hi, my best friend, and my soul mate. I'm sorry things had to turn out this way. I'm sorry i betrayed you because i promised things i couldn't have managed to adhere to. I'm sorry i lusted after other things/love. I'm sorry. You make up a big part of my heart. I'm glad that you're still standing strong in what you believe in & continue to be this way, do not waiver. Please don't be like me. I know you're leading a very fulfilling life albeit the many circumstances which are rounding you up. I'm sure you'll get through them. Thank you for teaching me how to be humble, and to be respectful. Thank you for many things you taught me. I am sure i wouldn't be who i am right now without you. Thank you for being the best friend i can ever have. I wish i could be there for you but i dont know how to. I love you. Forever.
Hi, the last sentence you told me was 'Go fucking reflect. Your attitude sucks. You're a fucking liar and a bitch.' It hurts to call you to receive a 'who are you?' at the other line. Till now I've no idea what triggered all these. You despise me, you hate me. I know. I wonder why. I wish you know that i still think about the random funny shit things we do, having very random phone calls, laughing to Mr Bean together. You're the one who helped paved my road to wanting to be an entrepreneur. My dreams, your dreams, they're all tangled together. Sadly, it's a mess. A tangled mess. You are probably the only one who understands my gibberish & is willing to entertain me. I wish old times will reel back.
Hi, I am in a loss of words because I've too much to say. From the things i could have done, and couldn't have done. The many things i should have, but didnt. I dont blame you for what you did, it's human nature& you had no strings attached.I hope we'd bump into one another & start a fresh friendship from there.I think about you all the time. Thank you for the good times.
Hi mum, my biggest regret in my 18 years is that particular sentence which i always want to snatch it back immediately when it sprung out of my mouth. I know it hurt you deeply. These were the words i said 'You're not fit to be my mother'. You're the best mother i could ever ask for, and i love you. I love you more than i can ever love anybody else.