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Wednesday, January 26, 2011 || 9:56 AM

In our era, we get into a never-ending state of confusion. Clarity is muddled up.
Values are thrown aside.
wealth is confused with happiness, love is forged because of personal insecurities or loneliness, age doesn't equate to the level of maturity, couples breaking up because of shallow issues.
We're constantly chasing better things, trashing aside people you've a responsibility to.
Human beings are as fickle as the rain nowadays, as quoted by one of my fav bloggers.


I'm starting to feel like I don't really want to be acquainted by anybody anymore. Because my view isn't on par with most people. Do not show me any hint of impatience because just so you know, I am feeling just as that, it's just i am very good in concealing my emotions .

What have i became to? I ditched visiting an important family friend because I was busy with my schoolwork & events. Since when is work which will be thrown to me every other day more important than somebody who has impacted on your life?

You do all of these to please people.
You shelf priorities based on preferences of the people you have to please, but what about yourself?

Guilt.

When somebody told you they'd do something, and they didnt. Here are some reasons why.

1. They probably said it to please you. And pleasing is the furthest extend they would go.
2. You are probably not that important
3. You are definately not that important
4. He or she is living in a state of mind of which they fizzes scenarios in their heads but never get down to doing it because as true as the reality is, it stops at the line which states 'fiction'. Fiction, in another sense is also - Imaginary.


Stop deluding yourself.

So... I've words in my head...
& I feel there's a need to talk to somebody now, but that somebody who can understand me is really far away.

Anyway, i'm listening to this song grenade by bruno mars. It's a catchy song but with trashy lyrics. I know it's metaphorical but it just makes me quite pissed off.
Firstly, nobody will ever catch a grenade for you.
You know what all of us will do when we see a grenade coming our way?
We will open our mouths, and exclaim 'fuck', while simultaneously move in another direction.
It doesn't matter if the person you love is on your left/right/front/back because it's human nature to do so.
It's also human nature to tell yourself blah blah blah blah blah but in actual fact, you don't.
We're all functioned from day 1 that in our life, we've a responsibility, and that responsibility is
to care for ourselves. And it comes so naturally, when we weigh it with caring for others - which we have to constantly tell ourselves to, we spend more time and effort to, it seems that the latter strikes the winning bell but really, whaaaatt?