How lovely, lying on the bed with two other friends, with another sitting by the bedside sharing quotes, trying to decipher the deeper meaning of each. Sharing thoughts, thoughts, thoughts.
Morning came, & off we trotted, to surprise someone. Breakfast on bed, with a stalk of sunshine.
Gonna grab some thai in a while ;)
Saturday, July 30, 2011 || 5:34 AM
Yion gathered the help of friends who're closer to Dickson to help plan a surprise for him! Actually, all of us agreed to help because we don't see him as a friend's boyfriend, we see him as our own friend and we genuinely wanted to celebrate his birthday for him.
I remember the first time I saw him, I felt intimidated to talk to him, possibly because of his implants, and tattoos. Plus he doesn't really talk so he had this really untouchable cool outlook. Buuuuuuuut i know that i have to make the effort to be friends with him because he's my best friend's boyfriend!
Pretty soon, a friendship blossomed.
Im sure all of Yion's friends will know how awesome a couple they are, a good looking, retarded, unglam, funny & sweet couple at that lol.
So,here we go!
Card for him.
I was constantly texting so that we know where they are, how far they are from the place & when to light the sparklers.
I was DAMNNNNNNNNNN kan chiong please.
Heart shape from lightsticks!
Sparklers in a 'D' shape!
The birthday boy had in his hands = cake, balloon& flowers.
Then it was dinner! @ Wavehouse!
Did you realize everybody was wearing black?!?!
Friday, July 29, 2011 || 10:07 PM
My academic calendar :
1/8 : IMR presentation 5/8: RPB's proj submission 8/8: IMR end sem test 10/8: Mall Mgnt end sem test
15/8: Mall Mgnt's proj submission
|| 8:47 PM
Carl Jung puffed on his pipe. "Believe in God?" He mused out loud. Well, we use the word believe when we think that something is true but don't yet have a substantial body of evidence to support it. No I don't believe in God. I know there's a God.
The evil of compartmentalization
Human beings have a remarkable capacity to take things which are related to one another and place them into separate airtight containers so they don't rub up against each other and cause too much pain.
For example, we're all familiar with someone who claims that he/she is a frequent church go-er, he/she praises God all the time, believing that the individual loves God truly. But that same person, for example, has no trouble submitting to his company's policy of dumping toxic wastes in the local stream.
Easy way to operate, but integrity, it is not.
The word integrity comes from the same root as integrate. It means to achieve wholeness, which is the opposite of compartmentalize. The latter is easy, the former is painful. Integrity requires us to be fully open to the conflicting forces and ideas and stresses in life, and take a stand.
- Further along the road less traveled
Tuesday, July 26, 2011 || 10:07 AM
Ah, thank god my tutorial's at 1 tomrrow so I'm able to fork some time out tonight to relay my thoughts into words.
Have been thinking about this for quite some time.
My closer friends will know that I'm someone who needs to have a particular distance from everyone and anyone. I don't relish the idea of having to account for somebody's emotions, even though this is so difficult to avoid in life.
But this doesn't mean I don't value friendship, or love. It's just that I do things in a very different manner. Of which many will misinterpret, and sometimes, on bad days, even I myself get very muddled up in my own stand and logic. I get so frustrated with myself, with how I choose to handle things.
My defense mechanism when this occurs would result in me taking a step back, or doing things which will result in the particular other party taking a step back.
Sometimes when I don't really understand something, or when I'm trying to understand myself, I take note of my conscious thoughts and reasoning, and also, probe as far as I can into my sub conscious thoughts.
Still, no satisfactory answer.
Anyway, for the past few weeks, I've been really horrid to a really close friend of mine. I don't know if it's my defense mechanism coming out to play, or whatever. She felt the difference in the way i spoke, my actions and the impatience I've been showing her. I know, I'm horrible. But deep inside, I know, this particular friend of mine, she's a keeper. She's a gem, she's precious.
Every single time I show my stupid attitude towards her, I will go home and feel bad about it the entire day. The worst thing is, she has never showed me any signs of impatience. She totally kept intact the loving side of her.
I've been thinking of Jacynda as well. It doesn't matter if somebody who knows what happened between me & her/ my family & her family reads this and scoffs. I've been feeling very regretful recently, and funny how this regret only kicked in a few years later. I am regretful of what our friendship could have been, but I am definitely not blaming myself for my thought processes at that point of time because I was being truthful to myself. We all have to grow up, make choices and learn from them. I do not think that my decision to leave the particular organization was wrong, neither was it right.
It wasn't wrong because everybody has the liberty to do whatever they want, it wasn't right because to a certain extend, by doing that, I am being a hypocrite, a liar, I was being someone who didn't know how to stick to what she believed in, I was constantly waivering.
But thought processes, as we are exposed to different circumstances in life, changes.
The friendship could have sustained something if I wasn't so cold at that point of time. It was so clear she was making effort, and I was just taking a backseat.
But I know, whatever it is, I have betrayed her trust. Not that I did anything wrong, I just did not live up to what she expected of me.
I'm not sorry for that, neither am i proud of it.
I told myself that this can't happen twice. I cannot let someone I treasure deeply make the effort while I enjoy the ride behind. So, I did what was necessary, talked things out and apologized.
The best thing was, I told her the entire chunk which I just typed. It warms my heart to understand that she understands, is so straightforward about the entire situation, and takes me as I am, even if I am not exactly the sweetest friend on Earth.
I secretly think blogging has the same effects as counting sheeps.
I feel tired already.
Or maybe it's just the time, LOL.
Sweet dreams, sweethearts <3
Givenchy Haute Couture Fall 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011 || 8:42 PM
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|| 3:09 AM
Just bought an Accessorize fringe bikini at 70% off! I just had to exchange a red & green color note for this lovely piece!
Stocked my house up with Marks & Spencers confectionery as well. Am a die-hard fan of M&S. Love these UK savories. So affordable & good! Yumm yummmmm!!!!
Saturday, July 23, 2011 || 10:48 PM
I just read from Cleo magazine that the average woman cries 5.3 times a month?
Ah, seriously? Mmmmmm.
Ah... yesterday was my official last event with Freemansland.
Am so gonna miss this chic, trendy & friendly working environment (& crew of course!!!)
But it's inevitable that one must move on, to bigger opportunities & the more important commitments in life. I'll still be helping out as & when I have more spare time for sure.
Even if i'm not in the team anymore, still have this certain emotional attachment lingering on...
Can't wait for my internship @ Shanghai! Got allocated to the Visual Merchandising department, which is really a blessing because it's a livelier job which will enable me to travel around the busy town instead of being stuck in a certain office all the time.
I'm certain this job will push me to have a sharper eye for details, for sure!
Will be there from Sept to early Dec, the period of time when summer's transiting to autumn.
Can't wait to embrace the lovely weather & different shades of brown.
And not forgetting, the outfits which'll go alongside with it ;)
In autumn when the trees are brown The little leaves come tumbling down They do not make the slightest sound But lie so quietly on the ground Until the wind comes puffing by And blows them off towards the sky.